Barely months before the board exam and I can't help but be rattled. I'm close to breaking down but I know I never will. My spirit is low but hopes are high. I wanna get this thing to death and I know I haven't given my all. I don't wanna blame someone for being to late and in a hurry now. I have to go all over the subjects in the span of three weeks, perhaps.
Can i ever get them all in my mind with this short amount of time? I hope I will, there's no other for me. This will be the start of the realization of a dream, a trajectory to all places I wanna go.
But just sitting in my chair listening to the reviewer makes me ask myself, "Am I really for this?" I don't wanna answer it myself but I need to. It's a necessity. I wanna cry but I know it won't help. After the board, I will have to support myself. It's scaring the freak out of me but it's the way it should be. My parents are getting old and when they can no longer work, I want to be there for them.
Lord, help me please! I will give my all in this last minute in time. I need YOU!
